Ive never written a blog in my life before...never tried to put my thoughts in to words.Why would anyone want to read what i think? Would people appretiate it? Or would they laugh?? Why do i let my feelings be known to the whole world? What good would blogging do?? To be truthful , the answers to the above questions don't matter to me a hell of a lot as i really don't think much about what people think about me.....I am what i am...like me the way i am or dont...(not true for everyone though).I have been kinda forced to have this outlook towards people...stayed at 4 different states....met various kinds of people - some interesting , some not very...Looking at my past i begin to wonder...well...in the long run , am i going to remember them after 10 years???do what they say have an impact on my goals???do the thoughts these people have about me actually matter to me in any way???I guess it does sometimes and thats when I appretiate having friends in my life...Staying in BITS far away from home , i realise the impact friends have....these are the times i will remember and treasure for my entire life...these are times i am actually happy or upset or angry...This is when i feel ' Alive '....Does all this contradict to what i said earlier about people not mattering to me????? NO..it does not as the people who matter to me are not many and i like it that way.....